who are you?(Teen depression and suicide)

Who are you?

Who are you? Your first thought is probably your name but i mean who are you? Not the name you were given, not the label society gives you but you. Your personality, your strengths your weaknesses. We all have them.

There is no one else like you. What are your dreams? Your wishes? Who do you love? Who do you trust? Every person has different answers. Maybe you don't have hope for a future, maybe you have lost all faith, maybe you feel like you don't have anyone that you really trust and that's ok. We all lose hope. We all fall down. Some of us fall down but we don't get back up and we just carry on with a smile like we are ok but we aren't.   Over 20 percent of teens suffer from depression and there is an average of 5,240 teen suicide attempts daily. I know people who have attempted suicide, people i love have attempted suicide. I'm not going to stand here and say that things will get better, because i don't know that they will. I don't know what pain anyone else has felt. The only person who knows exactly much pain you have felt is you. Never assume someone is weak because they don't have it as bad as you or someone else. We all break. We are all human.

Let's be honest here, this world is full of so much pain. So many children haven't even had  childhood due to the situations they were thrown into as a child or a teen. Forced to grow up before they should. Maybe that's your case. Maybe not. That doesn't mean you are weak or have no reason to lose hope. So much can push a person over the edge. Bullies, parents, people leaving, Heartbreak, even ourselves but there is nothing wrong with you.

I know how it feels to be hopeless or scared. I don't wish those feelings on anyone, i've had people, leave me, I've been hurt I'm still here. You’re still here. You’re still breathing,you’re still fighting. Maybe you think you aren't. Maybe you think you are weak or broken or you’ve given up. Maybe you are broken, maybe you have given up but remember broken shards can be glued, they can be fixed.

Have you ever felt helpless? Do you know the pain of watching someone you love in pain or see them hurt themselves or to find out on of your friends or family has been faking a smile? “A smile can hide a thousand shreds of pain” one of my best friends said to me and at that moment I felt helpless. I know that a lot of the positive words said don't always work on someone and that's frustrating but you aren't alone. Words like “things get better” or ‘I understand” don't always work.

No matter how much pain you are feeling , angry or scared, you are not alone. Everyone has someone who loves them unconditionally. People leave, That can break a person but still at least one person loves you, cares about you and wants to pick you up piece by piece even if they are falling apart themselves. That's love.

You are loved. Even if it seems like you aren't, you are. Every single person is here for a reason. Just of thought of the people I love being depressed or wanting to kill themselves tears me apart. If you give up, so many people would be devastated. Who you are is exactly you should be, exactly how people should love you.